Transitions from keel to sail

I’m just thinking about the suddenlys of the bible and why some people feel it’s always an endurance test? The amazing thing is there are moments were God’s grace pours transformation into our lives just by being with Him, bypassing effort. It’s His grace and favour giving us what we could never achieve our-self’s.

The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me, Because the LORD has anointed me To bring good news to the afflicted; He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to captives And freedom to prisoners;
To proclaim the favorable year of the LORD And the day of vengeance of our God; To comfort all who mourn,
To grant those who mourn in Zion, Giving them a garland instead of ashes, The oil of gladness instead of mourning, The mantle of praise instead of a spirit of fainting. So they will be called oaks of righteousness, The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified.
Isa 61: 1-3

Repeatedly transformed and empowered

In my experience this grace and favour comes repeatedly to transform and empower me to help others. But how and why?

I’m still working these things out. One thing I have experienced is that when I get anxious about what I should be doing, I go dry or find myself distracted from receiving from God. This also happens when I get anxious about what others should be doing. The more I find out what is possible the more anxiety that is possible.

Well, this is not the response God want’s me to have. So how should I be responding to receive?

How can we receive?

He want’s me to stop looking at what’s missing and see what He is doing. He wants me to just know His love and that it’s His good pleasure to give me these things, it’s the Kingdom. He want’s me to know Him, have faith in Him and see Him glorified in and through me.

For we through the Spirit, by faith, are waiting for the hope of righteousness.
Gal 5:5

For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God;
Eph 2:8

But we should always give thanks to God for you, brethren beloved by the Lord, because God has chosen you from the beginning for salvation through sanctification by the Spirit and faith in the truth.
2Th 2:13

When I first came to Scotland I was excited. I had been radically saved, freed from drug addition and experienced God’s love. I had recently graduated from bible collage and my Pastor thought it was a good idea to send me to the mission field.

At this point I had experienced the Holy spirit and Speaking in tongs but had become dry and lost sight of aspects of my salvation. This was all about to change.

Filled to overflowing

While staying in Edinburgh, Jerry Bishup, who I was sent to work with, invited me to go to see what God was doing in a church on the other side of the town. While their I went forward for prayer and a river of God’s love and joy filled me. The experience transformed my life. Outwardly though I looked ridiculous as I appeared to be drunk. This outward appearance has changed through the years and at points gets even more ridiculous. Let’s put this to the side and see what began to happen.

Being Born again again

Up to this point one of the fundamental truths relieved to me when I first meet Jesus, He loved me, had begun to be buried with the burden of trying to live right and avoid sin. I had learned and memorized loads of the scripture, had set up routines of prayer and fasting, practiced what I understood as following Him and what I thought He was saying to me. Yet I found this new encounter transformed this into a reality of God moving through my life. The gospel was alive in a completely different way, that was more in keeping to my first experience of Jesus. It was like I was born again again.

I was having so many visions and encounters with God. I would pray for people and they to would be filled with His love or some other revaluation of God. This was amazing but I was about to get even deeper into the river.

Bringing the river with me

Shortly after this God told me I was going back to America. I didn’t understand why. I found myself walking through the community and seeing what God was going to do. Why would He have me pray and see if I wasn’t going to be a part of it? Two days later Jerry told me that I would need to go back, just as God had told me.

Jerry had told me about Smith Wigglesworth and how he set it in his heart and spoke to God about bringing his experience of outpouring back with him to his home town, so I set it in my heart to do the same. On the plain home I spoke with the Lord and asked for His Spirit to continue with me.

When I got to America the next morning I was invited to a wedding. During the reception people came and asked me how I got on in Scotland. I would share with them how God was moving in amazing ways. As I spoke, God’s power would manifest and people would be overcome by His presence. The more I shared the more intense His presence became. As the numbers of people being effected increased we needed to move into the hall to more freely enjoy what God was doing. The hunger for more so increased with my friends that we decided to go to our church building and enjoy God.

This desire to meet and enjoy God was so strong we did it every night. First it was at the church, then we transformed our house into what we called the prayer shack. This worshiping and interceding in His presence continued in that place for 5 years.

The fire keeps burning

During this time there was such a tangible presence of God. God demonstrated Himself in power in some extraordinary ways. Some of the most surprising aspects of all this was how God showed up in playful expressions. There was a deep seeded need for us to see Him as playful. The disarming of our dignity was amazing and healing. What happens when children play with their dad and each other? What happens to those who never learn to play or have their childhood stolen? God was bring to life His desire to be our dad and show us what a loving dad was like. We were also learning how to be sons. Absolutely amazing.

The power displayed was incredible. At points so humbling and overwhelming that I would hide under a chair and weep. From prophesying over people and they fly across the room to picking people up by one toe and shaking them in mid air like a rag-doll. As the opportunities to minister increased the level of faith and power increased. Songs, paintings, sacrificial giving, wisdom, counsel, love and transformation. God like I didn’t know was possible.

For a season

This continued for about 4-5 years and then slowly faded away. Some might say it was just for a season, yet in other places the flow continued. So what happened?

Since then I’ve experienced multiple born again again encounters and have come to the conclusion that they are not something to wait for but are available in season and out of season. Though what aspect of Himself God might want to reveal can change, the availability of His manifest presence is always here. The key is to not get caught up in distraction, but in the love of God. There are so many things that steal our focus in surrendering to Him. If it distracts us it’s not valuable. Every good and perfect gift comes from God.

Is the test for endurance or surrender?

So if outpourings aren’t seasonal why do we experience dryness? Is it a test or a result of distraction? Are we under attack? Is our faith under attack? Jesus cursed the fig tree for not having figs, even though it was out of season. Why would Jesus expect something beyond the trees ability? Or was it beyond it’s ability? What is on God’s heart?

How we set our faith makes a huge difference with this, I think. If our faith is set on us living in His unconditional favour, and we expect this on all sides, and we know that sin can’t disqualify us from His love and favour, we begin to walk into an experience of Ezekiel 47:5. If we think our behavior can change our God’s acceptance of us, and our favour with Him, we will walk much more in an Ezekiel 47:3 level of experience.


Interestingly in Ezekiel 47 God’s river is measured out in stages of deepness and the effects of life as it deepness? God’s favour, does it come in stages? What’s our involvement? Is it divine and inevitable? Are there any barriers? What’s faith’s role in this? Why do events of deep water streams happen in the first place? Are they always available? If so what is involved in releasing this unmerited favour?

Jesus said to His mom, “it’s not my time yet” when she drew Jesus’s attention to the lack of wine for the wedding guests. His mom said “do whatever He says”, they did what He said and the river began to flow (the flow of Jesus’s ministry).


What is God wanting to release? Is there a river of sanctification? Can we be given perfect alignment with God? Not being like God, not receiving some wisdom like God, but in perfect harmony with God. Back to the garden of Eden. The reality is we are tried and tested, but is the test for endurance or surrender? What does it mean to pick-up your cross daily? Doesn’t this mean surrender your life to Jesus? Is this punishment or freedom, penance or change? The kingdom of God is forcibly advancing in His victory.

Born again again moments

I love born again again moments. Let’s find out how they happen and welcome in God’s hunger to give us the kingdom.

He want’s me to just know His love.

Transitions from keel to sail, from rudder to wind. For direction is set, confession confirmed, forces pressing, sails lifted and the shore growing smaller. His glory our destiny as His love pouring out and filling up and bridging the gap from fruitless toil to promises abounding with transformation.


Whispers of mystery to draw us nearer, hopes that paint the night bathed with morning. Horizons illustrated as they push back the night, releasing a flow for the tide to follow.

Promised mysteries reviled in the call to walk away from what appears as certain, because of devotion and experiences of perfect love. No fear can make me withdraw my covenant for the one who fights to have me and gave His all that I might know. From century to century He has declared His love.

There is transformation in my heart, bridging the gap with His holy love. Sealed for the promise to come, yearning as one in childbirth.

By: John Drummond

Robby takes us through His Born again again experience. It’s hilarious and so good.